In 2009, while driving down a mountainous, country road, we encountered a herd of white Brahma cows meandering across the road. We stopped the car while the farmer attempted to move them out of the way. The bull of the herd seemingly sought me out and remained standing by my window, staring intently at me for what seemed like forever before moving away. I was very glad the window was closed because at that moment my childhood fear of bulls kicked in big time, I felt like a petrified tiny girl in the presence of a giant.
I didn't know what this event was about at the time but instinctively knew I would be coming back to this specific place to make a One Garden Essence. Within a few weeks I returned one morning to make an essence with an intriguing purple flower I previously found on the side of the road. I was surprised to find upon arrival, that two new essences were to be made under the influential canopy of the Divine Timing flower (Lantana). Divine Purpose (Verbena) and Divine Courage (Bull Thistle) were created side by side in the pouring rain.
Leading up to, during and post creation of an essence, I'm given many informational signs through feelings, impressions, symbolism, metaphors and events about the spiritual messages being relayed through the essence. These messages are teachings about the ways of God's universe, inspiration, encouragement, indicators, suggestions and guidance for our awakening journey. I don't always understand these messages as I have to find ways to interpret them. Often I will be reading or watching something and recognise the connection between the data collected during essence making and what I'm currently being shown as a form of translation. It all depends on how aware and open/desiring I am to receiving the translation. I feel its about timing (Divine Timing) of my readiness/desire to learn more.
The reason I recount the making of these two essences and my encounter with the big scary bull, is because I've had an epiphany.
Over the past few years I have been in deep reflection and questioning about my work as creator of One Garden Essences. This questioning is because in the early stages of creating these essences I made a commitment to myself, the essences and to God, to tell the truth about the role One Garden essences have and what they do. I stopped teaching about these essences because I felt I was off track with my commitment. I've had long pauses in communication through this blog, because I didn't feel I knew the truth with certainty. I still had so many questions without answers.
There has also been much demand from within and outside sources for me to get on with it, just write something, do something, get out there and promote the essences, get them to the people. Its easy to cave into the pressure, the seduction to conform to the way everyone else is sharing their creations. To join the marketing highway and say anything that people want to hear.
So this is where the Brahma bull comes into it, the message he was giving me that day.
Be courageous to stand your ground with truth, don't let fear dictate your actions. The off beaten track can feel fearful, lonely and never ending, but the comfortable super highway, where everyone is heading, can be deceptive and take you to "difficult to turn around" places. Be courageous in your commitment despite opposition, criticism and judgement. Stay true to what you experience to be true and don't give up.
What an incredible gift I was given that day, but my fear (lack of courage) prevented me from receiving it. Over the past months I have been trying out my courage muscle, a quality that God places in all our souls. I have began standing by the truth that I have learned to trust due to re-occurring experiences. I have been receiving a lot more information about the essences after increasing my prayers, desires and passion for God's truth. And I've been doing a lot more experimentation with the essences.
I received a lot of confirmation about my work with One Garden when learning Understanding God's Loving Laws, a week-long seminar presented by Jesus and Mary. This seminar is available for free on Youtube. Click here
When I wane in my courage, the essence Divine Courage reminds me to go to God and pray for God to help me grow my courage. What I have experienced many times is the essence Divine Courage points me in the right and loving direction based on God's truth whilst honouring my freewill to chose otherwise.
I have also decided to do some essential housecleaning by reverting to my birth name of Christine Thelma Phoebe Cobden.
In 2006 after my 2nd marriage finished, I decided to legally change my name to Christiana Rose. I felt ashamed, embarrassed and viewed myself as a failure. For as long as I can remember, even as a small child I had always been hugely embarrassed by my birth name. I don't know why I felt this way.
So when the idea came to me to change my birth name (with the help of spirit influence), it was a way I could distanced and deny my true feelings and take on a new facade. I wanted to feel special, powerful and righteous, to block out the feelings of insignificance, weakness and ordinary-ness. The truth is, God doesn't make any of her children ordinary.
When I began calling myself Christiana Rose, people often stated how lovely this name was. This filled me with pride and glory, confirming for me that I made the "right" decision. But it was an error and now I want to correct this error and feel the emotions that I have been blocking all my life.
A guide said to me that it doesn't matter what you call yourself as long as your deal with the emotions I was avoiding that caused me to change my name, to want to create a new facade. I clearly hadn't done that.
As soon as I made the change, all the old deceptive feelings flooded in, this time I knew what to do - feel them, emotionally process them and asked for God's Love and Truth. It felt relieving to be honest, courageous and closer to myself.
Over the past months I have been trialling a new blend essence called I Love Me. I've had some powerful helpful experiences and personal revelations while taking this essence and I am ready to share this with you. It was while I was taking this blend that I made the decision to change my name, taking steps to move from the fake me to connect with the hurt me , which in turn leads to the real me. I feel so many of us have similar issues.
I look at the One Garden Essences that sit in the box and I can vividly recall every birth. I am so grateful for each and every one. And I'm so grateful for the teachings of Divine Truth that have helped me understand the messages of love and inspiration God relays through the flowers. These essences are not following an old path but carving a new one. This means I have to be open new learning, there isn't a road map for this and it takes a lot of courage to step forward. At the moment its a like a winding dirt track, but I feel I'm gaining greater experienced and understanding of what One Garden's role is and I look forward to sharing this with you.
I have removed a lot of the information from our website in readiness for more accurate truth. This is a process as I'm very committed to only writing what I feel to be true of God's version.
Until next time,