I have held this blog in draft form for sometime now.  As I grow in truth I feel more inclined to only write from a place of authentic experience, not from a head-space of concepts.  I held back from publishing this as I felt I needed more first hand experience with forgiveness and remorse. Over this period of time I have spent much time getting to know compassion, forgiveness and repentance more intimately. I also saw the movie Life of Pi.  I witnessed and was encouraged by the act of surrender so beautifully demonstrated in this film.  

Over many years I have been on a quest to find the ultimate miracle of healing.  I felt if I could find a way to heal my pain, then I could also help others to heal theirs. 

When I think back over all the time, courses, journeys and the money I've spent on this quest of mine, searching for the best teacher, best technique...looking for the holy grail of healing.  So what did I learn? I learned that I had a massive addiction to a fairytale in an attempt to avoid my pain or me having to do any hard work.  I wanted to be separated from the process, like going under general aesthetic, I wanted God or someone to take my wounds away, to wake up in the morning after a miracle being performed and it would all be gone. I wanted to be free of the horrible life long feelings of being unloveable and rejectable, having no identity and no value to my parents or to the world. I also found in avoiding my pain, ducking and weaving, using quick fixes, I was avoiding my healing, stuck in a never ending pattern of self deception.  What I wanted is not the process of true healing for I discovered that I need to be fully present, awake and continuing to guide the process using my desire and will to heal. Being fully involved in the decision of what addictions I am willing to give up in order to heal. 

God has created us in a way so we can only avoid things for so long, for there is a tipping point in which the level of truth of our pain becomes higher than our ability to avoid it. Where arrogance and stubbornness surrender into humility. Humans have an inbuilt self adjustment mechanism. a point of surrender, where all the labyrinth entries are blocked and there is no where else to hide (the movie/book, Life of Pi shows this so elegantly). I found myself in this place, there I was, stark naked, in full view of honesty admitting that I could no longer do this on my own.  All my strength crumbled into a desperate, humbled little girls voice, daring to ask for help...from where I didn't know...out there somewhere I suppose, perhaps ...I pray I hope that God will come. 

Over the past 4 years and more so over the past 2 years, I have definitely found what I was looking for, the holy grail of healing.  The grail itself is my soul and my willingness to open and receive love, Divine Love. A love directly given from God that heals and transforms all.  Along with this love comes God's Forgiveness, Grace and Mercy. 

Because of my childhood and maybe you can relate too, there was much harm projected towards me. And when this happens over time, a rage develops within and is projected out to the world in the form of DEMAND. Its like an animal who is badly mistreated becomes mistrustful and attacking as a way of protection from more harm.  In this scenario, there is no space for love.  Something has to change if we want to heal.  Even though the demand upon the world feels justified and self righteous. 

Forgiveness and Repentance both come from a soul-full sincere emotional feeling process, nothing changes at the soul level with little, insincere or forcefully demanded words. 

The Five Stages of Repentance (Remorse and Forgiveness) thank you Mary Luck for this gift.

This engages one of the highest Laws of Love - Law of Forgiveness, Grace and Mercy, which supersedes the Law of Compensation (Karma)

For the harm we have done to Others and Self, without self punishment. The process of healing only works if it is done without the act or feeling of self punishment. As soon as this element comes in, healing stops. ( I had an ant show me this truth). Our essence Divine Compassion helps us to draw on soul qualities of compassion, kindness, patience and love.  

1. The intellectual awareness that I've harmed another.

2. An emotional acknowledgement of my unloving behaviour.

3. A desire to experience the pain that I have created in them.

4. A desire to find the emotional cause of why I did this thing that was unloving, and then to emotionally experience that. (what cause me to do this)

5. A desire to do every single thing to correct the harm that I have done, including taking action to reverse it and asking for forgiveness from the person.

Process of Forgiving Others

1. Courage to feel and express emotions (anger, fear, hurt, shame, grief)

2. Grieve how much it hurt and deprived you

3. Feel the unjustness and unfairness (refrain from vengeance and revenge)

4. What causes them to do this to me

Here is the One step to Forgiveness

Forgiveness is the process of feeling ALL of the pain, all the unfairness and unjustness that was caused to you by that person. You only completely forgive them when there is none left inside of you. Forgiveness is the automatic feeling when all injury is gone.

Forgiveness is a soul gift to you and the person you are forgiving.  This will help them one day when it is time for them to feel the emotion of what they have done to you through remorse.

Remember these processes apply to: the harm you have done to others, the harm you have done to yourself and the harm people have done to you. 

This is the fastest way to grow our soul in love and one the ultimate ACTS OF LOVE for ourselves and the world. 


Click on our Slideshow below for more photos.   And for more information about Forgiveness and Repentance, here are links to videos:


Truth About Repentance and Forgiveness Part 1
Truth about Repentance and Forgiveness Part 2

Hello
I promised I would back with information about our essence Divine Compassion - a beautiful divine messenger from nature. 

Divine Compassion (Purple Broom or Polygala)
 a flower originally from South Africa, was the last essence we made on the Tuesday after Easter. I honestly thought that we had completed our range, but early one morning when stirring from sleep, I received a message from my spiritual guides that there was a flower waiting for our attention. I was told that it was the key to opening our heart and increasing our willingness to embrace the essential process of emotional healing.  I immediately knew which one it was.  Almost a year had past since I had connected with this flower and believing our range was complete, I had wondered what this connection was all about. 
 
Around the time of its birth, I was learning/experiencing more about compassion, forgiveness and humility, the most poignant source being from a book study session of "Through The Mists" with Mary Magdalene. I have always found each essence comes at the time its needed the most.  
 
As humans we have a predisposed tendency to punish ourselves and others. We create lines in the sand, and once crossed, all hell breaks loose. It's a pattern that has been encoded as a first level response to mistakes.  We punish with varying degrees of harshness. This is usually accompanied by un-forgiveness, grudges, bitterness, rage and feelings of un-justness.  These toxic emotions eat away at us and our relationships, while at the same time we have passionate desires to live in a world of love and happiness. Feels irreconcilable or incompatible doesn't it? 
 We have mostly two responses when we make errors/mistakes; we either punish and berate ourselves, in order to prevent others punishing us, or we push back in rebellion, blaming others to prevent us feeling the shame of our errors and accepting responsibility for the consequences. When an error occurs we immediately expect punishment in some form. The shame causes us not to act immediately to make amends. That's what we experienced through our childhood and schooling was it not?  We didn't have any one showing us compassion or explaining that mistakes are an essential way for us to learn and grow. We certainly have compassion though for a little child learning to walk and we don't yell at them when they fall down many times through their experimentation...or do we??? 
   
Judgement and punishment come from our heart made of stone with a severe demand and expectation for constant perfection. The act of compassion, kindness, patience and love softens our heart, melting it into flesh.  I spent a lot of time with this flower, both emotionally and physically. Observing the flower's structure, it goes through many stages and changes, continually transforming into another shape, colour and presentation. There is no time limit to the stages.  Each stage unfolds in its perfect time and cannot be forced or demanded. I have found these these different stages represented in a series of photos (see below). Of course the process of compassion and forgiveness is a series of stages.  If we attempt to skip an emotional stage of forgiveness it becomes false. Complete forgiveness can never be obtained by a mental decision of "let it go, its in the past" or "get over it" or "she'll be right mate". An injury of judgement and punishment makes a mark and claims space upon the soul.  It stays there until it is emotionally processed and released although its scar will remain forever.  

Forgiveness comes naturally when the pain of the injury is fully felt and complete. In other words, when all the pain of un-justness is felt, the expression of forgiveness is automatic.  If you look carefully at the flower, you can see this final point when the flower releases the seed from its heart, showing the symbol of transformation in the shape of a butterfly. 
 
Because compassion is an act that requires humility, forgiveness, kindness and most of all it's an act of love, I was guided to place the heart shaped stone we used when making Divine Humility and the seed ball we also used for making Divine Redemption (it just happened to be among the flowers of compassion) with flowers of Divine Compassion. 
 
An act of love, of compassion, does not mean that the consequences of error can be avoided.  I remember Carolyn Myss saying in her dvd, "sometimes the most compassionate thing to do is to stand back and let someone feel the full measure of their actions".  We also learn and grow through the impact of consequences. The main aspect of this is having love and compassion present in the act of standing back. 
 
My experience with this essence is the encouraging feeling of softness, gentleness and willingness to respond to the situation with soft eyes and voice of love. A feeling of loving arms holding me through the process of feeling my shame and hurt. A gentle form of courage to address the situation with love and action. These qualities are already living with us yet are overshadowed by demand and harshness, usually the wounded voice of a parent or teacher. Of course, this flower shows us there are many faces, aspects and layers to errors and forgiveness, far beyond what I am able to share right now. For this blog is meant to be a short overview.   
 
Overall, what I have found from the message of this flower is that humility, compassion, kindness, patience and love certainly help us change a wound into an act of love. Learning through the process of love rather than punishment and judgement. This essence stirs the qualities of love from the bottom of my soul and brings them into action. For me this is profoundly beautiful and offers a new way to respond to my errors and the errors of others.  
 
With all the war and expressions of rage around our globe, it looks like everyone could use a generous dose of compassion. Self punishment and hard hearted-ness has been the primary barrier between me, the world and happiness. I love this gift  of Divine Compassion, for I can feel myself softening...finally.  How about you, how is your world, hard or soft?
 
In my next blog I will talk about the stages of forgiveness, a process of transformation through the act of love. 

Much love
Christiana

Greetings 
Over the past 4 years of birthing 72 essences, it has been exciting, challenging, terrorising and humbling experience.  At times I was galloping down the road at a fast pace shouting to the world of our discoveries, while for the other part of time I wanted to hide under the covers terrorised by the responsibility of it all.  I've had much to heal and reconcile. Now I am learning about the profound qualities and value of patience, allowing myself the time to absorb the lessons offered. Moving it from intellectual data to heart-full integration. Patience and I have always struggled with each other, but now I can see what patience has to offer and what can be solidly built with it.  


You can see that we have a new look and format.  I have decided to give the newsletter format away as it was always a big job and caused me much procrastination.  I feel the blog format will be much easier, simpler and to the point, in other words, short and sweet. We have a new website address www.onegardenessences.com . As a techno challenged person, I met many fears and obstacles to create this website.  I am really pleased with the result although there is still much tinkering to do.  I invite you to have wander around in our e-garden. 

I was reading my last newsletter with the announcement that we had completed the full range of One garden Essences with the birth of Divine Father.  I both blushed and chuckled when I read this as there have been a few more additional essences since then.  There is an old saying..."show God your plans and She laughs", I can imagine the belly laugh that went across the cosmos when I sent that newsletter out (although in reality I know She would smile and love me anyway).  In the next edition I will talk about the new additions, one being Divine Compassion (see photo) and the others are our New Earth Essences.  Here is a link to a preview on the New Earth Essences (photos below).

My focus now is to refine One Garden's information/messages.  I am now embracing their potent overall message.  They certainly are a refinement and new generation in the way we view healing. With anything new, I realise it takes time for people to open to embrace the changes.  It comes down to being open to receiving the unique gifts that One Garden offers.  I know deeply in my heart that One Garden are the early messengers of new beginnings in the way all healing will be conducted in the future. 

I will leave you with this beautiful quote I found the other day, for this has also been my experience with nature. 

"I love to think of nature as an unlimited broadcasting station, through which God speaks to us every hour, if we will only tune in." ~ George Washington Carver 

I hope you enjoy the spring in the south and the fall in the north, to take time in the garden as precious moments of reflection and soul nurturing.  

Much love
Christiana